im so at the lowest point of my life now..
certain times..i just feel like giving it up. seriously..
over what happened last thursday(041007)..can i say that life has changed for me.
really changed a lot. as in drastically.
but well..changed not for the better at least.

can i say that this portion of the post. is for someone. someone whom used to be special to me.
and her name is Nurul Ain. this is for u. i hope u read it. :
i want to say thank u. thank u for everything. for all this while. the past one year have i spent with you. it has been wonderful. and a great pleasure to be able to be with u. seriously.
all those times which were both happy or not. its still hard to forget. but since u want to go on ur seperate way. so yar..it has been fated to be like that. that we should go our own ways.
about what has happened in the past..all that ive done wrong towards u. im sorry.
i hope that u do forgive me. since hari raya is around the corner. then it is a time for forgiving.
im so sorry. there is more to what i have to say. i want to say thanx for all the time that we have spent together, thanx for all the memories that we've had and last but not least, thank u..for loving me. now that we are nothing already. i wont disturb u. u have ur own new path of life to live. stay happy always okie. and do take care of urself. and erm..i hope the guy that u have found. is much way better than me. and im sure he is.. live life to the fullest. k.
lastly..forget me not. cause we are still friends right?
i think that would be all for u. i do hope u have something to reply.



okie..moving on with what i have to brag about life.
life has really been very difficult for me. trying to cope with alot of things.
and im not sure if im string enough mentally and emotionally as well.
been feeling rather depressed lately. and i mean really depressed.
can i say emo?? if that is the word that suits me right now.
thinking bout family, friends, relationship, school with plenty of project work.

argh!! i just feel like giving up all. :'(
but i have to try..i cant give up..life can still go on. but it does hurt. really badly..
one thing about the above mentioned. my feelings are still strong. and i cant seem to move on with life..haiz... but i cant find my will to go on.. haiz.. :'(
ever heard of people die..cause of a broken heart?? i dont even know what is wrong with me.
if for that day..i had just listened to her..all this wouldnt have happened.
and thanx to my stubbornness..it did happen..
and i am regretting what ive done..for the rest of my life.. :'(



will someone..mend this broken heart..