eventhou my internet connection is back..
still i am not able to update everyday..why sia. haha.
busy working lah..needa save up a lot of money. really alot.
the list of things to buy just keeps getting longger.
wonder why... -.-

i got no mood uh to update about anything else.
other then that i went to Farahain's birthday party just now.
was kinda fun..nice party..n thanx for inviting.
long time didnt see her. hah.
well..thats basically it uh. -.-


feeling damn f***ed-up right now. damn bloody angry.
so damn f***ing stress..aahhh!!
i think white hairs on my head are gonna multiply like bacteria. haha.
i mean..serious talking ah. i cannot take this anymore.
MY SECTION IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!
for real man. there are so many things that i wanna say but i just couldnt say it.
n its killing me. all this ensemble thingy..

u all think its damn bloody easy izit to do?? huh. every time ask me do things for u all.
wat..u all taking advantage of me izit?? then u all down there shake leg.
u all know how stress i am or not? u all know how difficult izit to take care of u all or not??
u all know how hard izit to get u all to co-operate or not??
ive tried my best..gave my all.. but its u all that make me feel dissapointed everytime.
no matter how many times i say..u all still wont listen.
its no use right..since u all dont even respect me.
i treat u all like family la sia..i love the section man.
but sometimes because of certain things..i just cannot tolerate.

ive done almost everything to give u guys what u all want.
i really commit myself to the section okie..then how bout u all?
then when i do something for u all..u all got appreciate? got?!
its very to work with u all..sometimes when having fun can have fun uh.
but when it comes to serious stuff..must be serious uh.
n i cannot afford to have ppl m.i.a all the time.
aaahh! i everytime feel like just screaming in front of u all sia.
but i choose not too..n i dont have to say why.
n i dont think u all need to know lah ehk. im on the brink of giving up for u all.

i do the ensemble..then u all say boring?? then u all want wat?!!
im not any professional okie..im just like u guys..same standard.
im just putting in effort to help. if u all say boring.
then u all come up with something else ah.
u all when i ask..then say dunno. eh..contribute abit lah.


n to think that the section-t also i do. wth..
u all dont become too much uh.. please..im begging u all...
cant u guys feel the pressure. cant be that im the only one right.
what happened to the bond that we used to have??
soon the seniors are going to step down..then what will happen?
u all got think ahead or not?

haiz...think of u all ah. later my hair become all white.