your stories, my alibis

2009-05-14T00:46:00.003+08:00

I've MOVED People

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http://architecturalproportions-of-life.blogspot.com

THANK YOU
=)

2009-02-18T10:39:00.002+08:00

why does it always have to end like this

on a perfect day with good intentions

and just because of one small mistake

or maybe a misunderstanding

everything turns for the worst

can you believe it

just because of one small thing

yesterday really didnt end off well

i feel like crap

i feel like a jerk

im feeling all those nonsensical feelings

I SAID IM SORRY ok.

and why do you have to do this

WHY?

IM SORRY

2009-02-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i just wonder.

Who am I?
to you.

2009-01-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

Villa De Fotografer @ Koh Sah Mui

-the interior

.miss u baby.

2009-01-30T22:27:00.002+08:00

ok..its been kinda long since i really updated my blog. haha.
sorry
so it has been a hectic week. serious.
with FINAL submission in 4days time.
all that work that you need to do.
and not the right tim to loose ur phone!! haha.

you know..it just happened ytd.
lost my phone in school. how much worst could it get?
it was such a perfect day till that incident took place.
bloody hell, curse that human or whatever that took my phone.
retribution shall fall upon u..beware...

haha!

ok. cut the crap.
but today im uber happy.
cause i managed to get myself a new phone. wee...
haha, a touch screen, htc-look-a-like. cool eh.
a china made phone of course.
but the looks can decieve u i tell ya. haha.
thanx to baby for accompanying me to sim lim sq.
and for helping me choose my phone. love you baby.

enough of that..im still using the same number anyways, 92429565

you know, i managed to do up my interior and exterior view of villa yesterday.
was able to submit it on time.
all thanx to my baby!! for pushing me so hard.
despite the setback that i lost my phone. =)
thanx baby! ilyvm. muaackss!

hmm..now i have to push myself even harder.
its seriously the last lap.
JUST 4 MORE DAYS!!! GO!!!

2009-01-25T01:41:00.001+08:00

Love can be evil
Love can be wrong
Love is not always simple
But it’s always strong
How it controls you
Is a question indeed
Because there are times I feel like
I will never be free.

2009-01-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

i'm lost.. help?

2009-01-14T11:41:00.002+08:00

Sesuatu telah terjadi
Saat ku tinggal dirimu
Sesuatu telah berubah
Saat ku lihat dirimu

Apa yang kau lakukan
Saat ku tak bersamamu
Siapa yang kau pikirkan
Saat ku memikirkanmu

Katakanlah kepadaku
Jangan kau bohongi aku
Mungkin ku bisa paham
Walau kau bohongi aku

Apa yang kau lakukan
Saat ku tak bersamamu
Siapa yang kau pikirkan
Saat ku memikirkanmu

Haaa inikah caramu

Apa yang kau lakukan
Saat ku tak bersamamu
Siapa yang kau pikirkan
Saat ku memikirkanmu

Oooh ..

Sesuatu telah terjadi
Saat ku tinggal dirimu
Katakanlah kepadaku
Jangan kau bohongi aku

2008-12-29T10:40:00.002+08:00

life just seem so silent
to the shattering sounds of broken promises
but what more could i do
i didnt mean for all of this to happen

i'm sorry..

everything seems to happen at the very last minute
during these crucial times
so many mishaps, so many things went wrong
and i wonder why

when will i be able to hear your voice again?
when will i be able to hear the sound of music?
when will i be able to hear you say i love you again?
when will i be able to hear the sounds of the piano playing?

2008-12-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

hello today, goodbye today
yet hello again to tomorrow

days seem uncertain
being fastforward, being slowed down
with unconstant turmoil going about everywhere
its hard to tell what will come
its even hard to start off the day

where once love and peace stood there
wonder where it all went
wonder if it will ever come back

for once could i have not bothered
for once could i have not asked too many questions
is it worthy to not being the nice and caring person
maybe being nice isnt that all of a nice thing

cause for that one moment that i cared
everything changed, everything twisted
just for that one split second
got me to shut up and loose all my senses
to think that one has overpowering split personalities
nothing is ever certain, nothing is

its hard to cope with sudden changes
but nevertheless, im trying
something i know is that, i'll never give up
no matter how much it hurts
no matter how bad u run me down
no matter how much it is going to break me down
even if it brings my patience to the limit
i'll never give up, i'll never give up

however though
it feels like a balloon blown to its full size
leaving the skin to tear any moment
being filled with flamable gas
floating, just floating above a stove
imagine what will happen

life is totaly uncertain
a happy beginning could be come a bitter ending
but for sure, make full use of it
cause nothing will come closer to life than death

2008-12-02T10:38:00.004+08:00

ma new look yaw. so how is it?

2008-10-30T19:41:00.003+08:00

2008-10-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

i can't update anything
words just seem to not flow out from my head
and to this fingertips of mine
to be typing it all away

i see everything from the corner of my eye
and there is just so much to see
things that we dont usually see
i feel everything with my heart
and does it seem wrong?
to show how u really feel at times

sometimes
even words cant even seem to be enough
to describe something
it takes more than just words

iloveyousweetheart.ireallydo.

2008-10-03T10:25:00.002+08:00

masih disini manantimu

berharap kau akan memikirkanku

2008-09-14T14:00:00.002+08:00

its been quite some time since i last updated
the last post was mainly just pictures from my Malacca study trip with the school
and the reason for not updating that often already is cause
of my internet connection
it starting to become a big pain in the ass again.
well now, it has been revived again. =)

oooohh..looky at the date. its 14th Sept.
Happy Birthday to Mom & Azri!
aint it cool to have a friend sharing the same birth date as your mom.
haha. ok..it aint cool.

&adding one more event for the day
HAPPY 3 MONTHASARY BABY! (-.-,)
time just flies past so fast
and it has been 3 months ive been together with dear.
i love you very much. i really do, from the bottom of my heart.

lets talk a little bit about yesterday
had kind of a long day
started off the day spending time with my family
did the usual stuffs, which was like going to the market & blaablabla
some time in the afternoon went to do some Hari Raya shopping for the house
&you know what, my house is now all green. haha.
it is so tiring to paint my house man. haha.

so continueing the journey,
after all that shopping
it was almost time for breaking fast
we then settled down at Banquet @ Raffles Hospital
reached there aprroximately a few mins before 6pm
&there we like so many malay people there already
the place was almost full, but luckily we managed to get seats

after breaking fast
headed down to Geylang for the Ramadhan Bazaar
surprisingly it wasnt that packed with people
comparing from the other time i went with dear.
stayed with my family for a while
then i had to go off @ around 9:15pm
to go and fetch dear from work =)

so i headed towards harbourfront
&waited patiently at harbourfront shopping centre for dear to finish work
after waiting for a few minutes
finally i got to meet my dear *huggs*
made our way to the mrt station and headed home
i sent dear home, coincidentaly the time struck 00:00
&the date changed to 14.09.08
got to spent a bit of time with dear =)
took plenty of photos
but..but..i cant upload the photos
haha
you see..dear thaught me this smiley: (-.-,)
cause you know why?? my eyes are sepet!
haha

you..whatever it is. ilyvm.
im missing u already.

2008-09-10T00:16:00.008+08:00

My Malacca trip

2008-08-28T03:31:00.001+08:00

ok people

im off to

MALACCA

really soon

dont miss me kays?

haha

cya

2008-08-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

2008-08-26T23:01:00.002+08:00

ok, haven't been updating for quite some time
now that school is over for this semester
its time to enjoy! haha!
finally the holidays are here
but it is also the fasting month this coming september
so i wouldnt know how the holidays would turn out to be like

lets start updating from where i left off the other time
and so it was saturday
was supposedly to follow mum & dad to the cemetery
but i woke up late and they left without me, haha

still had plans in the evening though
met up with dear ard 4pm
we were to watch the Fireworks Festival
oh yar, meeting up with izuanto and his girl as well
met up with them at suntec at ard 7pm
after that, headed towards the floating platform area there
well not exactly at the platform ah
but somewhere near there, outside esplanade

it was drizzling a liltle bit when we got there.
we still waited for the fireworks
there was hell loads of people there
but we managed to find a space to squeeze in between the crowd

we waited..
and waited...
and waited...

and finally..came the the moment
at 9pm, the night sky was filled with colours
it was so wonderful, exhiliarating
it was like, a dream come true
to be watching the fireworks with dear
felt like a fantasy, but only it was reality =)

remember the song?

'i swear that you dont have to go,
i thought we could wait for the fireworks..'

well dear, now we have watched the fireworks =)
and the next thing would be
to wait for the snow right? haha.

ok, so i just couldnt explain the feeling at that moment
but i was just so happy =)

went out with dear just now
to just spend time with her
before going for the Malacca trip
which is like in 2 days time
haha! cant wait for it =)

had fun just now
wont be meeting dear till thursday morning
and as for during the fasting month.
im so gonna miss you dear. =)

i think should be till here for now
am getting sleepy
& &..i forgot wat i wanted to post actually
haha
sorry

iloveyoubaby.muaacks.=)

2008-08-22T02:40:00.001+08:00

im sorry

maafkanlah diriku

ku tidak cukup sempurna

2008-08-17T23:48:00.004+08:00

had so much fun with Dear yesterday

went to visit La Salle

to do some research studies on the architectural elements used

basically just studying the form and space of the building

took some photos here and there

but in the end, ended up taking lots of our photos instead

=) my Dear is a good camerawoman

and Dear became my hairstylist for the day as well

ooh..that was soo much fun

haha

eventhough it was just a short while

it meant so much

and yet, i still cant get enough of you

im missing u already

i wanna make you smile

whenever you're sad

i wanna grow old with you

i love you baby. muaacks. =)

2008-08-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

CUTE2 SELENGER

haha

let your heart know for sure

that i have so much more to tell you

every single day

i love u baby

2008-08-03T22:47:00.002+08:00

haruslah aku
memperbaiki diriku
sikapku dan perangaiku

tanpa ku sadari
yang ku telah menyakitimu
aku salah
maafkan lah diriku

ku mencintaimu
lebih dari apa pun

2008-08-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

its like, FINALLY
the burden of Primer2 has lessened
final model has been submitted yesterday
but i think thats just half of the burden gone
cause now, there's like so much documentation to do
including the A1 presentation boards

one more week
just one more week
and the hell of Primer2 will be over
after crit session that is
i should be abel to pull thru all of these
i need to, i have no choice

been feeling so tired
had so much things to do for the past few days
project submission is one thing
and on the other hand, i stil need to go back to WGS
to teach my juniors
some parade thingy for their NDP celebrations

for the first time in my drumming life
had i ever had blisters on my hands
after drumming intensively for such a long time
so now i understand why, haha

oooh, good news
there will be a study trip to Malacca this end August
28-30th of August looking forward to it
&yes, MALACCA...AGAIN... -.-
but, if i go
then i cant perform during teachers' day celebration
Shawal has already asked me to help out
urgh..i cant make up my mind

hmmm..lets see
today was a short in and out day
meaning going in and out of the house
for so many times

did the crazziest thing today
went to vista point with shrimp
bought a can of redbull and one bubble tea each
all of a sudden, i had the most stupid idea
which was to mix the redbull, together with the bubble tea
mix it well, shake it here and there. haha.
and u know what, it didnt taste awful at all
it tastes wonderful actually, surprisingly
im like gonna get addicted to that thing
got high because of that

i think im crazy o.O

but the best part was when i got to meet my dear. =)
eventhough it was a short while
im happy to be able to see her for today.
she's the sweetest thing, like i said
my sweetcrunchiechocolatecoveredwithwhippedcreamandtoppedwithcaramel
haha =)

am strumming away on my guitar
playing the songs that you would want to hear
singing softly in ur ears
and watch you fall asleep on my shoulders

2008-07-29T15:01:00.002+08:00

im sick

down with flu, urgh..

its driving me crazy

& i cant even do my work properly

suddenly my whole world turns cold

i dont even have the mood to continue with my project for now

the freaking model is so troublesome to do

haiz.. =(

dear, i miss you

where are you, when i need u most

2008-07-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

photos were all from yesterday's gig. IGNITE! @ RP

and credit goes out to Izuanto for taking the photos

it was an awesome show with plenty of good performers

local bands such as Plain Sunset, Electrico & Caracal were there

i can tell you that the stage was cool, especially the lightings

the sound system wasnt that bad, it just wasnt balanced out well

i couldnt believe that i was involved in moshing

the crowd was too wild i guess

it was fun, but the sad part was that my shoes got all muddy

well, at least not mine alone

plenty of other people also had their shoes covered in mud

haha! :p

now, my days revolve around Primer2

trying my best to finish up my model by Wednesday

doing the model is like so time consuming man

i dont know why i even bothered to measure everything accurately

maybe just trying to grab points for craftsmanship?

i just hope that i can pull this off nicely

one important lesson ive learnt today

never drink 3 CANS of REDBULL in a row

redbull does indeed gives u wings

wings till you fly high and cant even do your work

haha! =)

i am never ever going to do that again

i feel like im missing something

im missing my 'sweetcrunchiechocolatecoveredwithwhipcreamandtoppedwithcaramel' dear

haha =)

i am missing u so much

Primer2 is like engulfing my life

this is my one and only chance to make it right

i cant turn back anymore

and to help me through all of this

i have my friends, family & of course my darling

we'll go through all of this together

-THE END-

2008-07-25T23:21:00.002+08:00

am feeling a lil' bit better today
managed to bring myself up and going again
thanx to a few people and of course my dear
started of the day nice and well
it ended nice and well too, feel much more happier actually
=)

brought some donuts from Donut Factory to school just now morning
shared 2 boxes with the class
people started questioning me why all of a sudden i became so nice
as to bring them stuff like this
and i just smiled, so as to brighten up my day
by seeing other people happy

waited for dear to finish school.
somehow the temperature in the studio was kind of cold
i was like shivering the whole day
the aircon system isnt right, like always -.-

ended up waiting at the library
nice place to take a nap, haha
seriously

after waiting, we went for a late lunch at CWP
and didnt expect to bump into certain people
do i look shagged? worn out?
hopefully im not overworking, cause i still have a lot of work to do

spent the rest of the evening with my dear
but it was only a short while
at the end of the day
she made my day =)

i just cant stop smilling
erm..sorry no photos for today
and i still need a new camera

traehteewsuoyevoli

*smile for the camera! =)

2008-07-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

im feeling kind of down for today

i have no idea why

but for some reasons im just irritated by some people in class

i wonder how long more i can endure all of that

the day is coming to an end

and yet, im still feeling like this

ive even asked myself so many questions why

but i couldnt answer them

im SORRY

i just need YOU my dear

& i miss you so

iloveyousweetheart

2008-07-22T22:56:00.003+08:00

been busy lately, sorry i havent been updating

Primer 2 is taking up way too much of my time

still need to balance out my time

there is just so many things to do

Final Model submission is next friday, 1st Aug

and there will be an extention of another week to do up presentation drawings

not forgetting documentation as well

the submission for all that would be next2 monday, 11th aug

but whatever it is

there will always be someone there to brighten up my day

my dear =)

ooh, i guess we cant keep it away from the others

well, just let it be. it will bound to happen one way or another right

i still cant believe they found out so fast. but neverthelesss, i love you dear

let the days go by as normal as it should

cause each day i'll love you more and more

let the time flow like water when im not with you

and let the whole world freeze when im with you

let the sun shine as brightly as possible

and so that the stars will twinkle brightly in the night sky

cause you're like a star, like a star, my guiding star

eventhough we are in the same class, sitting on opposite sides

seeing each other in class, for practically the whole day

i still cant get enough of you, i miss u so

cause you're my heroine

iloveyousweetheart

just as short as it is, i hope its meaningful =)

-THE END-

2008-07-11T12:57:00.002+08:00

i actually dont have much to update.

so, till here i guess? haha

iloveyousomuchdear =)

3moredays to?

2008-07-08T14:08:00.002+08:00

she's like a star, like a star, like a star, ooh baby

she's like a star

2008-07-05T13:00:00.002+08:00

Primer 2 is killing me
& i swear it is taking up a lot of time
very little rest very little sleep
dooms day falls on monday
well not exactly doomed lah, but submission is on monday
haha & its only interim -.-

planning not to sleep for today and tomorrow
that is till submisson comes
its like, err.. no words to describe it
my work is just not satisfying enough
doing all this just to prove my point
prove it to all those didnt believe

spent a lovely evening with my dear yesterday
managed to catch a movie
eventhough with a tight schedule of work to follow up
Wanted aint that bad but erm..mind your language haha
but our time together only lasted a short while
as the day grew shorter we headed home early
& i kept forgetting that it was a Friday
ooh, how wonderful -.-

the trains were packed full
like a can of sardines haha
managed to board the JE bound train via Woodlands
without bouncing back amazing eh

i need a new camera
a good one that is
which is has about 8 to 10 megapixels
now thats what im talking about haha
my current camera is just crap
even some handphone cameras are better than my digicam haha
but sad to say, wait long long uh

i would rather photograph my life
rather than inscripting it in words
which some i dont even know how to
dont you think that a photo might tell more?

ok. till then
take care people =)

ooh, & im missing u already baby
i love u so much

2008-06-30T22:09:00.001+08:00

my other half,

&i swear that you dont have to go

2008-06-30T21:39:00.002+08:00

havent been feeling so well since yesterday
and i have no idea
of what is going on with me
even i crack under the slightest pressure

today was just not the best day at all
i feel so unwell
i feel so suffocated
i feel so demoralized

and i just hate being like this
so, so emo-ish

i dont want to lose what i have just found
for all this that i didnt meant for it to happen
for all the mistakes that ive done
im here to apologise

im sorry

i just feel so lost, confused, complicated
i guess im just at my lowest
im sorry

lost my way from everything i swore i knew
runaway from start to finish though it never ends
in my mind im blinded by all i see
close my eyes, just pretend the bullet isnt there
no surprise, no need to pretend that no one really even cares
but in her eyes you will find the very best in me

iloveyoumorethanyoulleverknow

2008-06-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

PRIMER 2 IS TOTALLY SUICIDE

and i mean what i say
it is driving me crazy
crazy as ever just to think of it
i dont get the point of going through all this

your my guardian angel
=)

2008-06-23T23:31:00.001+08:00

everyday of my life
that u are a part of it
is an extraordinary gift

thank u
u made my day =)

i love u dear.

2008-06-22T00:14:00.002+08:00

the performance yesterday sucked.
honestly, it did. bloody hell screwed up everything.
but other than that, the sales were ok.
only just that the performance. haiz..

i'm not feeling well

my dear
love is like the wind
you cannot see it
but u can feel it

do you feel it dear?
cause i can
isn't it wonderful
ooh, i love u =)

-THE ENDD-

2008-06-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

Finally, its concert day

WGS Alumni Winds presents:
FUN'd CARNIVAL @ Woodgrove
official opening 9am
tickets are selling @ $2
*will be available at the door, or rather the front gate =)
there will be selling of snacks
games will be available too
& of course there will be MUSIC

do support aite.
there will be selling of 2008's P.O.P movie DVD
specially made for the seniors, members n teachers
proudly brought to you by Azri, Julio & Guo Qiang Productions

school resumes this coming monday
& there is still a lot of work to do
am i behind my schedule? hope so that i'm not
excited? indeed
prepared? i don't think so
exhausted? ooh hell yeah
k, cut the crap. haha

i miss my dear
i know you know i want you to want me cause you want too =)

2008-06-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

1406 the day to remember =)

i don't want this moment to ever end
where everything's nothing without you

i want you to know
with everything i won't let this go
these words are my heart and soul
i'll hold on to this moment you know
as i bleed my heart out to show
and i won't let go

i'm yours, dear
just so you know
that i will always be there for you
i love you =)

hmm..had a very nice time out today
wee..u just make me love u more and more each day
u know what, i'm missing you already..really
how i just wished that we could have stayed there till the sun sets
watch the full moon glowing majesticaly in the night sky
with you by my side =)

but of course a day out wouldnt be fun without any jokes right
haha. suke eh kacau orang. wee..
so sad we had to say goodbyes. till monday ok?

-THE ENDDD-

2008-06-15T19:19:00.001+08:00

something happened

isn't it magical
ooh, i love you...

2008-06-13T13:41:00.002+08:00

i never thought that it would happen
until it did happen
so all i did was believe
believe in this thing called love

now all i want is you by my side
like how it has been sitting in the park
with the wind blowing and a nice scenery
forgetting bout what's happening around us

how i wish that i don't have to let go
how i wish that it would last forever
how i wish that there is no need for goodbyes
for that moment to last

ooh, i love you
and i know you do too =)

-THE ENDDD-

2008-06-11T16:09:00.002+08:00

had a great time yesterday =)
memorable, nice..
i just don't know how to describe it more
like u've said, some things are still unanswered

but do you believe now
and will u believe
that there are such things as fate
maybe there are no accidents

i guess only time will tell
but there is no need to be afraid
don't worry
cause everything is gonna be alright

the feeling is growing stronger
each day
v'z zvffvat lbh
and as the days go by
v ybir lbh

-THE ENDDD-

2008-06-09T18:09:00.002+08:00

ok. err..a lot has been going on.
why? i don't know.
ooh cut the crap. haha.

there are many things that i couldn't understand
for once, i felt lost after having found something
but i'll treasure and appreciate that something that i have found
i don't ever want to loose it

ever watched August Rush?
nice show, somehow i got inspired by that movie
maybe u guys should watch it
after watching that, i just want to do so many things
but i'm not crazy ok. -.-

u know,
i just can't wait for tmr. wee... =)

-THE ENDDD-

2008-06-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

i don't know what i'm doing now
i don't know if it's right or wrong
you know, i don't want to loose anyone
especially that someone
i don't want to loose what we've started
but i'm afraid of what is to come

maybe i'm just wrong
maybe i'm intruding into someone elses life
this doesn't feel right
and so do i
haiz..i just don't know what to do right now
i..i just.. i don't know.. =(

till next time

just let go, that's all you have to do
be free, move on
just let it go...

-THE ENDD-

2008-06-05T13:46:00.002+08:00

don't lie and say that it's ok
it's alright, there's nothing more to say

sometimes i just don't understand
is it just so difficult to say
the are so many choices that we can make
but our choices are hindered
by the guilty conscience of our mind
the all so self-centred mind

can't we just sit back in life
let it take us to where it is meant to be
we dont have to choose, cause it's fate
can we just go with the flow

i just don't understand
or maybe i will never understand
time will tell, but i'm afraid

how i wish to stay there
enjoying the breeze, the company
isn't it just breath-taking
isn't it just spectacular

-THE ENDD-

2008-06-04T16:14:00.002+08:00

wake me up when your heart needs company
take my hand when you feel alone
turn to me when you need someone to lean on
cause till time runs out
i'll be there for you, holding on

-the end-

zvff lbh

2008-06-03T12:07:00.002+08:00

holidays have started.
so what..there's no difference.
but maybe with some exceptions.

first time i ever felt so happy
since the day school started
for the past few days
but saturday and yesterday was the best
memorable i can say

'ader tertinggal pape tk?'
'aper?'
'tinggalkan kenangan...'
haha. =)

but really uh
u made my day
thanx =)

still thinking to find a job for now or not
i need the money as my allowance
if not i can't even go out -.-
but got project work to do uh
i want to do well for it this time
as it is now or never

and to think there are "friends" out there who look down on me.
saying 'iman! is it really you? coming back to school during holidays to do work?'
how nice eh
all i can say is FUCK OFF!
im trying to start a new
so dont stop me from doing so
and i'll prove it to you

im not who i used to be anymore

sorry...

2008-05-30T15:00:00.002+08:00

SKOOL IS OVER!
n here comes the boring but yet busy hols.
crap. -.-

can i have a break?

new found happiness =)

-THE END-

2008-05-26T17:21:00.002+08:00

school was a bore
end of one project
n here comes another
PRIMER 2

n there is a site visit tmr
a zoo visit on thursday
i dont think this coming holiday
will be much of a holiday
still a lot of researh n work
to be done at home

cant afford to slack
but i think my group did quite well for the first project
heard some good comments from the lecturers
ouh yar..i forgot to mention
PRIMER 2 is an INDIVIDUAL project
haha!

whoa. n my mind is just getting too complicated
i cant think straight. damn.

-THE END-

2008-05-25T16:07:00.004+08:00

maybe it's just meant not to happen
maybe it's just to remain as it is

just..maybe..

optimistic? i dont know.
it was too good to be true

i miss you..

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2008-05-22T20:05:00.003+08:00

yeah. submission is finally over.
cool. err..wait..not cool.
cause the is crit tmr. fcuk.
i am so not prepared for it.
everything last minute. sux man.

tmr dresscode: black formal

n tmr jamming session for Adolescent Children is canceled.
bummer. =(
but Audiocean will be jamming tmr.
nice. 'DUDE! U ROCK!' alamack. haha.

anyone out there good with words?
i need help for some lyrics.
my mind is so totally blank.

-the end-

2008-05-21T21:11:00.003+08:00

the song died
the song died man..

haha. kidding.

err..tmr is DOOMS DAY!
seriously. its too rush to finish up everything nicely by tmr.
by 1700hrs that is.
submission. submission. submission.
final model is 80% done.
documentation is 60% done.
and im like. WTF!

this cant be happening.
the worst nightmare that could ever happen is..
that my group doesnt finish everything on time.
now if that happens. im gonna go kaput.

i just cant wait for holidays to come.
will just hurry up. i cant take this anymore.
i need my rest. totally.
finally find time to enjoy. enjoy this life.
which i think is rather miserable and pathetic. haha.

how i wish that that someone was by my side.
i miss..err.. nevermind.
just wish that i had that special someone by my side.
someone to love. someone whom i can tell everything.
someone that can make my day.
okie..forget it. thats never gonna happen.

u know what.
my bros dig crapping over coffee at starbucks.
my friends dig clubbing over projects in class. =)

2008-05-20T19:41:00.003+08:00

the leaves wither in the cold
tattered and torn
getting harder and harder to breathe
in the absence of sunlight

how are we to live

as the days go by.
the leaves fall
one by one
leaving but only the crooked thin branches

how are we to live
this cant go on

signs of hope start to appear
throughout the vast skies
the sunlight shone through the horizon
a last light is seen

how are we to live
it's too late

hope arrived to but a dead silence
gazing upon to what it seems
of the fallen leaves
and the dried branches

as we live day by day
we tend to forget our surroundings
it's living too
dont take it forgranted

-the end-

2008-05-15T15:05:00.001+08:00

I NEED INSPIRATION!
stop chasing my muse away.
im cracking my head for words.
words to a song.
a song for...

2008-05-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

my internet connection has a fcukin' attitude problem.
haha! well..it does. so now the connection is down.
and i cant access the internet at home. that totally sux.

luckily submission was extended to next week.
if it wasnt..i would be dead meat by tmr.
still have a lot of work to do ah.
and i cant afford to lose time. if not the laziness will take over me.
haha. rushing a lot of things man.

life has been boring.
i miss the old days.
but..nevermind..

2008-05-12T08:17:00.002+08:00

havent been updating in a while. sorry guys.
i have been busy..or rather tired to update anything.
school n other commitments are starting to become a burden.
but i have to persevere no matter what.
because of a promise i made. i do not want to be the 'loser' in this course again.
i have something to prove..to everyone. time will tell.
just wait.. =)

apart from that. its been kinda lonely or empty nowadays.
wonder why? a lot of things are missing. some hanging by a thread.
some drifting away..never to comeback.
find it? time is one factor..n another is. i dont know. hah.

daydreaming isnt such a bad thing after all.
but after someone chases away ur muse. then its all gone.
wish i had a photographic memory..or a hearing memory.
its hard to find inspirations now. be it for school or music.
n when it comes to music..its even harder.
u need to be creative..there must be ur own originality.
earn that respect.

Adolescent Children are coming up with 2 originals at the moment.
alternative will be the target. everything's going well.
but we still have to work harder. n it isnt easy. looking at each others schedule.
we will try to finish it off before Hali heads for NS. which is like next month. o.O
so..look out for our songs aite. whatever that we play..try to appreciate.
it music! =)
gigs will not be coming up anytime soon i guess. sorry guys.

will be off for now.
be back to update later. chiao.

2008-05-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

nothing much to blog today i guess.
went for the usual alumni band practice today.
so few turned up..wonder why.
i initially wanted to rest for the rest of the day.
but ended up 'lepaking' with friends Imran & Shrimp.
for like err..5 hours @ the r.c. haha!

i cant figure out whats wrong today.
seems to me its like..so many people are facing difficult times.
most of them are my dear friends.
i wished that i could help them as much as i can.
but i cant rid off all my problems myself.
its just sad u knw..to see friends in these situations.
when u can understand how they feel, what they are going thru.
coz u've been thru it before.

oneday..just oneday..things will come back where they belong.
things will fall in place where they should be.
&when the grass is truely greener on the other side.

~end

2008-05-03T00:48:00.003+08:00

wasnt able to update yesterday.

as i went for a short holiday trip to Johor.

turned out to be the whole day. haha.

i am actually very2 tired n sleepy right now.

i need my rest.

i need my sleep.

or else..i'll be like a zombie.

ooh someone shoot me~ haha!

school was okie just now. had some fun.

not during ES..but rather during CD. haha.

was not the usual kind of class u would expect.

niwaes..for after skools.

went to meet up with Shrimp n Imran @ dover mrt.

then headed for dhoby ghaut to meet Hali as well.

n the plan of the day was..to go watch Ironman!!

n it was Shrimp's treat! haha. cool.

the movie was awesome man. i just cant wait for part 2.

u guys should go n watch. highly reccomended. haha.

well..thats it for now.

will be heading for alumni band practice later.

c ya! =)

2008-04-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

so now im back at home.
supposedly to be resting..but hey.
the night is still young yaw. haha.
nah..kidding. i am deprived of my sleep u know.

as i said earlier..school was a bummer.
seriously. the most fcuking boring day ever.
slept during the MAT lecture just now. o.O
well..other than the fact that we played soccer after school just now.
under the hot hot sun. woo..
haha. shouldnt have played soccer man.
it drained me out..totally.

now comes the interesting part.
after playing soccer. went off with jazz..
the trains were damn bloody packed ah at that time.
so we came up with a stupid idea when we were at Jurong East.
coz the train at the middle platform was suppose to terminate at Yew Tee.
but..we didnt care nontheless. boarded it.
n so here comes the stupid idea.
dropped off at Bukit Batok. then chilled at MacD for a while.
jazz suggested we took the bus home..since the trains were fully packed.
so yeah..headed for a bus stop to wait for 178.
missed it..so we waited. DAMN FcukinG LONG SIA!!

amidst waiting the bus..
there were some commotions.
maybe i shall not say it..its kinda embarrassing to the malay muslim community.
some dude picked a fight with the bus driver. over some shitty matters
n furthermore..that dude was wearing a 'songkok'.
haiz..i guess his wire went loose. a long long time ago. haha.

when finally the 178 came. the bus was full. totally full.
we didnt board it..so went back to the mrt station to take the train again.
n it was still the same lah..no diff. -.-

so the stupid idea turned out to be a ridiculous adventure.

2008-04-30T12:20:00.002+08:00

am in skool now..lecture was a bore just now.
feeling damn sleepy. not enough sleep.
due to projects..but the first part is over for now.
haha. yeah..able to relax for a while.
but not i guess..am down with a flu at the moment.

will be off to lecture at 1pm later.

ey..tmr HOLIDAY! haha. got rest.
but will be going to J.B.
dang..i didnt bring my laptop today. =(

okie..gotta go nw. will update later at home.
c ya!

2008-04-28T21:40:00.002+08:00

life just got a lil' bit better..i think..
been updating lesser n lesser now.
coz of my schedule..n erm..coz i my comp crashed.
but its gonna change. for the better.. =)

since ive got a laptop now. yeah.
i think its gonna be much more easier for me to do my school work.
n i wont lose out when i go for holidays.
many thanx to the people who motivated me..
to go back to school..n start life afresh.
it feels so much better..really. aint joking.

ever since school started..been looking forward to it.
n i dont know y. but hey..
whatever it is..im starting to accept n like what im doing.
the people in school are fun to work with..n hang out with too..
i dont wanna mix around with the wrong type of people.
FOCUS.

tmr is the submission dateline for our Primer 1 Part 1.
n i think im confident n happy with what i have. =)
i hope that i could score for these year's projects.
i want to prove some things to some people.
speaking of people..i miss hanging out with some of my friends.
ey..long time never lepak eh? haha.

well..apart from school i still have other commitments too.
Woodgrove Alumni Winds & MusArtPercussionEnsemble(MAPE)
ouh yar..n not forgetting Adolescent Children too. haha.
these are the only few things which keeps me going in music.
so that my passion for it doesnt go away. coz the gift of music is just amazing.
& to be able to play it..its a gift. n i dont want to lose that.
music keeps me going in life.
but with all this..schedule is kinda pack. very i say.
seem to have not gotten alot of rest. haha.
i look sick todae. really? maybe school was much better. to SPICE things up.
haha. okie..im losing it.

will be having concerts coming up soon.

Woodgrove Alumni Winds
FUN(D) Concert - fund raising cum performance
tickets: $2
21st June '08, 10am - 12nn @ Woodgrove Secondary School

MusArtPercussionEnsemble
PSC1 Concert - Percussive Sound Concept 1
6th July '08
*time, venue & tix are still to be confirmed. - will update soon.

so..those interested. can look for me.
and i'll tell u more info on it. =)

2008-04-20T19:43:00.002+08:00

kae..so my computer is till not repaired yet.
haiz.. =(
now am rotting at my granny's house.
skool tmr..gahh! eh..alot of things to bring sia.
new project has started. kinda excited?? o.O

k..white chicks is LAME. haha!

actually..i dont know wat to update.
really..my mind is blank.
i just wanna play music at the mean time.
n composing music has killed some of my braincells.

ouh cool man. Adolescent Children will be coming back to jam soon.
but2..Hali will be going away for NS in June.
so..there will be plenty of breaks in the middle.

hey..i think i nidda go out more.
anyone game for cycling?
@ east coast. haha!

ok chiao.
-sua ku

2008-04-13T18:15:00.002+08:00

okie..so the blog's dead. haha!
so erm..been left rotting for such a long time.
cause my com crashed! -.-
it is still yet to be repaired. haiz..

been quite a while since i last updated.
and i dont know what to update. o.O
haha. alot2 to say actually.
but i just dont know.

stress uh lately..

alot of things to do.
alot of things to settle.
alot of things to worry about.

have been questioning alot lately.
eventhou my education path is now all settled for already.
there is still alot more.
perhaps..i feel as though something is missing.
but why??

I DONT KNOW

nevermind..slowly2.
even if it causes me to go crazy.
i think i did. yesterday.
wahaha. was fun. i think??

okie lah. till here only.
take care wonderful people.

-i miss u..

2008-03-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

2008-03-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

sorry didnt update for the past few days.
was feeling a lil' bit tired n lazy.
the trip to Johor was okie i guess.
got a new pair of jeans n shoes. =)

P.O.P is coming up soon..reall soon.
alot of things undone.
the schedule is real tight. o.O

hmm..spent my time 'lepak-ing' at the library today.
with azri, qraisha, sing yee & shirly.
njoyed the crazy times there.
they camwhored like there was no tomorrow. haha!
was fun thou..alot of funny stuffs. =)

and its u that all i ever think of..

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

2008-03-20T18:59:00.002+08:00

hmm..i think that this will be my last post for this coming long weekend.
want to know y?? cause i'll be going to Johor. my uncle's place to be exact.
haha. im leaving tonight. and will only be back on sunday.
which i dont know at what time i'll be back here. its gonna be such a BORE.
like as if can rot there. cause practically..there is nothing to do there. really..

went for band practice just now..went there at the usual timing.
and with the usuals.
i didnt go for last monday's practice. so i had no clue to what they were doing.
but finally got to know that they already recieved the new song to play.
Galaxy 999. i think..and another not so new..Coral Sea.
something was strange just now. but i dont know what.
the section seems to be all different. o.O

and i found a new software which i can play around with.
kinda cool..but not user friendly at all.
i like it cause the effects are kinda awesome. =)
well..can only explore more when i get back. haha.

talking bout something being strange just now.
i felt all weird..what going on man.. -.-
i like my blog song..listen to the lyrics carefully.
it's kinda meaningful..but eventhou it is put in a rock song. haha.

erm..maybe it's time. time to show myself.
should be done hiding the truth.
cause i cant stand it any longer..
but i still dont feel right. guilt still lingers around.

haiz..can i not go?? i dont wish to leave this place.
i have lots to do..many unaccomplished tasks.
i wanna talk to friends..haha. i sound as if im gonna be deserted onto an island with nothing.
klah..should be till here for now. gonna miss u all. haha.
especially all my chatting buddies. =)
and to someone whom im not able to chat with everday.
wait for my return yaw. haha.
take care wonderful people. adios!

2008-03-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

i think i've caused too much trouble already.
more over..getting a dear friend in trouble..
i didnt mean for anything to happen.
and to that someone..dear friend of mine..
IM SORRY. really so sorry.. :(

2008-03-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

okie..i'll be blogging early today. cause im tired. haha.
just feel like sleeping early today. damn i need some rest.
i think that a lot of my brain cells have died over the past few days.
finally today i could ease my mind.

maybe i did find the path that i wanted..
but now all it takes is for me to take some initiative.
i must work hard for it. my only chance to pursue my dreams.
i dont want to let go of it. and no one is going to stop me.

hmm..need to go to La Salle tomorrow.
hopefully my mindset is now straight. to go for what i want.
no more lingering around.

must i sound so serious? haha. =)

okie2..chill man.
damn i need a drumset. but where to get the money sia. o.O
further more..i havent got back to work for 3 weeks already.
i need to find more time..hopefully once P.O.P is done.
i can concentrate to earn my money.
and perhaps..find space in my room! i hate my room actually.
the arrangement i mean..n all those furniture which my mum wants to put in.
haiz... -.-

music has been on mind so far..for all these days.
its a must have for me. and i must at least play my piano once a day.
even just a note or chord. haha.
i dont know whats wrong with me. i even slept with my drumstick??
haha! sounds more like a scene from 'the red violin'

okie lah..till here for today.
take care wonderful people. =)

2008-03-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

i think i missed out a post before yesterday's post.
i didnt updated about band camp. o.O haha!
how can i forget sia. this band camp was a whole lots of fun.
eventhou it was just 2D1N..

well..at least the alumni did enjoyed ourselves with our nonsensical stuffs.
haha! as thou we were deprived of our secondary school times. =)
but hey..it was all for the entertainment of the band members. like what Alvin said.
n 'fruits n veggies' were our theme for this band camp.
i think im gonna get sick of potatoes. haha!
k..i dont have much stuff to update on band camp.
so for more info..please refer to the alumni blog yaw.

n do watch the videos aite. very comical. haha. =)

hmm..i feel slightly better today.
after thinking things thru..i still dont know what decision to make.
i still need more time i guess.
thanx to someone whom i talked to last nite. till the wee hours of this morning.
haha. but yar..really thanx alot. thanx for being there for me.
when i needed someone to talk to. n after so long not ctc-ing each other.
it did help. haha.

but still...no matter what happens, our parents come first.
after going to some religious ceremony just now morning.
i just felt so guilty..haiz..
time for repent??

hmm..i still do need my friends with me to keep me going in life too. =)

till here for now. take care wonderful people.

2008-03-16T03:17:00.002+08:00

okie..so things just got more complicated.
n the phrase:
"those who suffer most..are those who dont know what they want in life.."
is starting to becoming more true..
which is refering to me..
right now..at this moment. i really do not know what exactly that i want..
just like a lost soul wandering about the streets..
come to think of it..its like scary when u dont have any future.

lately..been trying to make a huge decision on my studies.
i somehow lost interest in architecture..dont ask me why.
now im starting to reallise that music is my growing passion n dream..
but that are some things that are hindering me from pursuing my dreams.
while at the moment..my parents are forcing me to go back to architecture.
i seriously dont know what to do.
HELP..anyone??

or maybe..there are just too many commitments to fullfill.
keep on going from here to there. concentrating on each part.
now there is an offer or rather an invitation to join a percussion organisation.
which is in Singapore..but not part of the school.
this could be an opportunity for me..to expand my knowledge on percussion
culture n literature.. there are important events such as WMC in Holland next year.
a good chance to go. but im still thinking..do i deserve to join??
can i commit myself?? so should i grab this opportunity??
im running out of time to decide.. gah..

n there is still alot more to do for the alumni band.
will it prosper?? will things go smoothly??
haiz..a lot of questions. nevermind then.
i shall stop here. till next time.

take care people. =)

2008-03-12T11:37:00.002+08:00

A day at Sentosa it was yesterday..
Band outing that is. 11-03-08.

had lots n lots of fun. yeah. haha.
starting of with grouping the band members outside boots n shoes.
with names of fruits n veggies as their group names.
Potato, Tomato, Papaya, Banana, Cucumber n Mangosteen.
haha. alot of the members did turn up. so the alumni were happy. =)

so..started with the briefing for the Amazing Race. then GO!
they had to find Apek in CWP. haha.
it all started from there. was cool sia. see they all suddenly run towards CWP.
like one whole big angry mob. haha. kidding2. =)
so the rest of the alumni quickly headed for sentosa.
we had no time to loose.

actually that was the only most exiciting part of the race.
for us alumni uh. haha.
other than that..when at Sentosa already.
Me & Azri were station at the first checkpoint.
which was Mount Imbiah..we waited..n waited..
n still waited..for so long..but no team arrived. haha. sad sia.
then we got to know that some of them skipped our checkpoint.
as they saw other alumni first. but in the end. they still managed to find us.
haha. it was such an ulu place. n further more..it was so difficult to get there.
making matters worst..it was raining. but the race still went on.

but me & Azri had no choice but to just give out the final clue.
which just lead the teams to the final checkpoint.
it was @ Palawan Beach. Southernmost Point of Continental Asia.
but hey..we all had lots of fun yeah. =)

then came the food..there were plenty. enuf for the members who came.
n i cant believe i cooked some of the food. haha!
so ya..had fun at the beach. played games. and i guess the fun never ends huh.
im gonna leave the post hanging here for a meanwhile.
wait till i get more pics.

till then..c ya. =)

2008-02-11T01:16:00.000+08:00

orite. so the final design for the percussion t-shirt is finally out. haha.

what a relief man. haha! well..it has already been sent for printing. =)

a lil' bit of gothic influence eh? i dunno uh. came up with the design myself.

and of course. the design is COPYRIGHTED! it is not to be reproduced in any way.

unless permitted by me. or i use it for another design. wahaha. k lame. -.-

wah..damn tired sia. but kinda bored coz havent been working for some time.

itching to go to work sia. haha! i need de money..

eh shit uh..t-shirt is finally settled.

now prob is the ensemble it self. not much time left eh.

aahh! struggling.. o.O

hoping for the best for tmr's session.

oh please will they just co-operate.

aku rindu semua! wahaha. -.-

tortoise dah giler...

2008-02-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

k..i know now its kinda late to be updating.
but anyway..
have been down 'memory lane'
and i never thought it would be a nice feeling.
what i found of most significance was..FRIENDS..n CHANGES..
and of course ur family. which definitely comes first before ur friends.

i can say..a lot of things have changed.
especially people..ur friends.
everthing moves so fast.
plenty have moved on..
to the fact that u dont recognize them anymore.

sad dont u think so?

to ever think if..
u knew that person so well..
u were very close to that person..
n just cause of something that happened..
suddenly..became a person u dont know..
so is that friend or foe? or perhaps..a stranger?

i miss so many things that have passed.
those old times..haha.
happy..but yet sad..
it is still yet to remain a memory..
:) :'( :)

2008-02-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

err..okie. i think i dont recognize myself in this pic. haha! for real man..

photo credit to : iZuanto ; editted by : mE

for all my work that ive done during my architecture days.

the library has been the place for my inspiration. totally.

somehow i miss sitting down at the library for long hours.

just by looking at pictures of houses..which some ppl just stare as if i gt nth to do.

-.-

okie..aku SERLOW. haha! stop it sia tortoise.

have been rotting @ home..its been a bore until i got nothing to do.

other then doing up some graphics. eh..people. tag leh. damn [D]ead sia.

klah..this last picture of the day. was just recently finished. actually took only a few minutes uh.

haha! okie. Happy CNY!

comment k?? please... haha.

2008-02-07T15:35:00.000+08:00

[P]ercussion [F]reak in deed.. haha. =)

2008-02-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

eventhou my internet connection is back..
still i am not able to update everyday..why sia. haha.
busy working lah..needa save up a lot of money. really alot.
the list of things to buy just keeps getting longger.
wonder why... -.-

i got no mood uh to update about anything else.
other then that i went to Farahain's birthday party just now.
was kinda fun..nice party..n thanx for inviting.
long time didnt see her. hah.
well..thats basically it uh. -.-

feeling damn f***ed-up right now. damn bloody angry.
so damn f***ing stress..aahhh!!
i think white hairs on my head are gonna multiply like bacteria. haha.
i mean..serious talking ah. i cannot take this anymore.
MY SECTION IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!
for real man. there are so many things that i wanna say but i just couldnt say it.
n its killing me. all this ensemble thingy..

u all think its damn bloody easy izit to do?? huh. every time ask me do things for u all.
wat..u all taking advantage of me izit?? then u all down there shake leg.
u all know how stress i am or not? u all know how difficult izit to take care of u all or not??
u all know how hard izit to get u all to co-operate or not??
ive tried my best..gave my all.. but its u all that make me feel dissapointed everytime.
no matter how many times i say..u all still wont listen.
its no use right..since u all dont even respect me.
i treat u all like family la sia..i love the section man.
but sometimes because of certain things..i just cannot tolerate.

ive done almost everything to give u guys what u all want.
i really commit myself to the section okie..then how bout u all?
then when i do something for u all..u all got appreciate? got?!
its very to work with u all..sometimes when having fun can have fun uh.
but when it comes to serious stuff..must be serious uh.
n i cannot afford to have ppl m.i.a all the time.
aaahh! i everytime feel like just screaming in front of u all sia.
but i choose not too..n i dont have to say why.
n i dont think u all need to know lah ehk. im on the brink of giving up for u all.

i do the ensemble..then u all say boring?? then u all want wat?!!
im not any professional okie..im just like u guys..same standard.
im just putting in effort to help. if u all say boring.
then u all come up with something else ah.
u all when i ask..then say dunno. eh..contribute abit lah.

n to think that the section-t also i do. wth..
u all dont become too much uh.. please..im begging u all...
cant u guys feel the pressure. cant be that im the only one right.
what happened to the bond that we used to have??
soon the seniors are going to step down..then what will happen?
u all got think ahead or not?

haiz...think of u all ah. later my hair become all white.

2008-01-29T01:41:00.000+08:00

2008-01-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

" and though we're asked how long it tooked,

to get over our loss,

how long to dry our tears,

memories cannot be erased,

the past cannot be forgotten,

and facing reality..is among our greatest fears. "

aint the phrases above true? well..i feel so that it is. haha.
been thinking bout that lately. struck my mind on something.
oh nevermind. later this will turn emo-ish. hah.

kinda tired today. n also stressed..feeling pressurised too.
dont wanna mention bout what happened during band just now.
just let it go..yeah. like what Qraisha said. haha.
' RED BULL gives u wings!! ' haha! let go n ur free. lol.

suppose to blog about something. but i dont want to. haha.
i still aint gonna tell. :p

n the letters of the day is : s n

2008-01-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

elo people! haha. sorry for not posting anything for some time.
been busy. with work and settling some stuff.

guess what..i have my internet connection back up n working. woo! =)
so now i can post like everyday. that is if im not lazy lah.

hmm..lets see. went jamming last friday. damn it was awesome!
yeah. haha! 2 hours of music live in the studio. with my band: Adolescent Children.
you guys owned the room man. woo! haha!
k lah. am getting high. but it was a really great jamming session.
n Arshad just got his licence. damn it! so he brought his ride wit him dat dae.
so the whole band gt a ride from him. awesome. a bit cramp thou.
but hey..what to do. blame Hali! haha! kidding2. =)
ouh yar..Arshad scared the hell out of this Banglah worker.
he purposely tried to knock that fella down. damn shit sia. hah! was blardy funny sia.
n Shad..ur a bad driver. tsk3.. haha! kidding2.

so that was Friday. totally awesome day. haha.
Saturday wasnt that fun. had Alumni band practice early in the morning.
attendence was poor. very few turned up. but stil managed to play a few songs.
but sadly..i had to leave early. coz i had to go to work. haiz..
as for work..it was damn tiring. i dont know y. just felt so tired.

worst of all..i got a bloddy infection on my feet. crap shit.
difficult to walk. n it hurts. looks grosse. disgusting to the max. haha!

k lah. till here for now.
but someone still has to figure out something. haha! :p
i aint telling just yet. just wait n see.

those who sufffer the most..are those who dont know what they want..

2008-01-13T19:18:00.000+08:00

okie. so here's my first post for this new year. haha.
kinda late huh. but nevermind. 2008 this time is no different from 2007.
and i am on the verge of giving up almost everything now.
i seriously cant take it anymore. totally cant..

give up architecture??
that is totally a big decission for me to make. haiz..

dont know y im feeling tired for the past few days.
maybe its due to work, school, band practices.
ouh yar..and it was also due to the cycling the other day.
was damn fun..totally a day with a lot of surprises.
guess what..my bike chain snapped while me n shawal were cycling thru yishun.
haha. yea. it really did happen. so we were stuck at yishun.
lets say for about 2 hours..i think..trying to fix the chain back.

but ended up..it held on momentarily only.
it snapped again half-way on the way back home.
since me n shawal played too much NFS. we came up with the drafting method.
haha! lame..i know. but it really did help. n it brought us back home.

okie..other than that adventurous trip.
hmm..lets see..
i guess thats all thats been happening wildly in my life. for now.
ah crap..i duont wanna get emo again.
later got people complain.

okie..till here then i guess.
hopefully to restore my internet connection at home.
then i can blog everyday. haha.

i love someone.
but i dare not tel.
for only u would know.

2007-12-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

some things.. are just best to be left alone..

as the saying goes..what goes around, comes around..

bringing everything upon yourself..

ok..so am kinda not in any mood or what-so-ever.
damn angry with someone. but still..promises are meant to be broken. right?
nevermind bout that. haiz..

am i still waiting?? i dont know
am i still alive?? NO.

i just failed myself.
and this feeling sucks. totally.

2007-12-23T20:09:00.000+08:00

sorry i havent been updating.
didnt have the means nor mood to do so.

i dont know lah..
i dont know whats wrong with me..
haiz..

everything just seems so weird.
feels as if everything is falling apart again.

and i never thought that i'd miss so many of my friends.
and i really do..

till here..take care.
chiao.

n im still falling for that someone.. -.-
n i did something stupid.. o.O

2007-12-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

ok. so..the blog's dead now i suppose.
so dusty. haha. lame.. -.-
sorry never update. didnt have the time to do so.

well..for the past 2 weeks. plenty has been happenning.
yeah..a hell lots of things have been happening.
good and bad. mostly bad?? i guess..

good news is that i already found a job. yay! =)
and another good news is hols are coming. which is..err..next week.
and coming to the end of the year in poly. submission for final project is next month.
damn shit it is. alot to do. argh!

k..then bout the bad things that have been happening.
i dont wanna talkl bout it..really..it may seem depressing.
but anyway..i wanna change. CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.
like how someone asked and wished for me to do...
that someone is now better off already with someone else.

know what..the weird thing is.
of late..i've been seeing people whom i used to know.
as in see them when im outside..walking2..
then..eh..that person like i saw before. hah. crazy.

haiz...just want someone to be happy..
i just want the matter to be solved..
i just want to settle it peacefully..
i just want my friends back..
those whom i used to know..

okie lah. i have to end here.
someone bugging me to stop.
life..as u know..goes on..

i really miss someone. but i dont mean anything to that person anymore.
and i cant move on.. eventhough that someone doesnt care anymore.
eventhough that someone already has another person to be with.
i still care okie..

i fell..for the wrong person... o.O

2007-11-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

hmm..i guessed i have changed alot huh.
really alot..i just feel so..so..so different..
y? and i have no idea. but i really have changed right??
so now what..i'm a 'dangerous guy' on the loose??
since that's how it is going to be. i'll live with it.

aku happy..aku sedih..aku rindu seseorg..
haiyo..what telah happen man.
all this right..making me go mad u know.
dont wanna be depressed again.

alot has happened. i dont want history to repeat itself.
for all those harsh words i've said. im sorry then.
was just too frustrated.. but then again.
what has pass is past. so lets move on shall we.

i miss fuveva...

2007-11-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

k. this totally sux.
i typed so much. and now all gone. f***

anyway.
i dont know what to say.
take care. chiao.

i miss fuveva.
i miss aunty biskut.

2007-11-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

haiz...this is just not working.
am so not doing well. i mean coping well with all of this.
ooh crap.. :(

someone shoot me in the head will ya.

ok stop!

haha. chill k. just that long time never blog. felt lonely??
no where to burst out feelings. haha.
dang..i miss alot of people. really..
a lot a lot of thing have happened. i think. hah.
ey..boring uh. like so many people gone missing.
padehal2. just go overseas for some time only.

haiyo..now having this damn bloody irritating flu.
feel so sick man. even eating panadol doesnt work. o.O

alah..i gtg already.
update soon. when i have the means to do so.
take care wonderful people. =)
chiao!

i miss fuveva...

2007-11-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

TODAY SUCKS BIG TIME!!

BLOODY FUCKING SWAY SIA...

first my day...and now this freaking blogger giving problem. kns.

2007-11-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

ey...im back today. haha. actually thought that i wasnt able to go online today.
but i am now. =) hah!

k lame... -.-

weird. i just feel so weird right now.
cause of something i dreamt about last night.
still cant get it out of my mind. dammit.
i seriously need to go get some fresh air.
feel the breeze..somewhere high.. maybe later then.

klah i dont think there is much today.
was kinda boring today. i think..
and i didnt know that yesterday was the last day of raya. till just now.
but some people are still raya-ing out there. haha! =)

i miss my friends..
i miss alot of people...
haiz... :(

k lah. till here.
take care people. chiao.

2007-11-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

life.. has been totally different lately..
a lot has changed..really. everything and everyone around me has changed.
thats including me also lah.. just feel so different..

kalau nak katekan lonely..tak sangat lah.
my friends keep me going. through my everyday life.
thanx you guys. k2 chill. coz some "aunty" out there ask me to not write emo-ish.
haha!! amik kau "aunty". :p

today was great. had fun.
went for alumni band practice in the morning.
suppossed to meet that "aunty" @ 7.30am. guess what. she overslept! argh!
so in the end. was late. waited for her for 1 hour. siao.. o.O
practically..did nothing much for todays practice. boring u know.

so after practice. headed for CWP to eat lunch @ LJS. with Q, Azri, Adam, Apek & Gladys.
so eat3.. talk3... then me, Q, Azri & Adam went to Timezone a.k.a Al-Time-zone.
those malays should know what i mean ah.
so Gladys went home. Apek went for chalet.
had a crazy-embarassing-wild time. haha. for more info. go visit Qraisha's blog ya.
malas ah nk type bnyk2.

haiyo..i cant stop thinking bout her. o'oh..
feel like want to meet her this very moment. but cannot lah.
fun u know go out with her. can i say i miss her?? oops.. hehe.

ok lah. i got plenty of photos yet to be uploaded.
so look forward to it ya.
take care wonderful people. tata. :p

2007-11-08T13:39:00.000+08:00

k people. i think enough is enough.
stop all of this will you. i cant take this anymore.

its already a month past. still it isnt settled yet.
im trying to move on here. give me my space and time will you.
i know u have. if there is no forgiveness..nevermind. i've already asked for forgiveness.
and i know u still wont forgive me. no use saying anything already.

my studies have dropped too. a got a freaking F for all my modules.
happy now! might as well i drop school if i cant continue to next year right.
this has affected my studies alot. missed school for more than 2 weeks.
why must i fall into depression so easily. yes. thats the word. DEPRESSION.
my lecturer even asked me go see a doctor. as in a pshyciatrist.
you see..now people think im crazy. what next?? IMH??

k. i dont want it to get out of hand. enough is really enough.
never want to go back to square one. after all ive done to move on.
k. shuddup!!

aaah! i cant believe that i just said all that. siao! told you so im going kaput.

erm..for the past few days..been trying to make myself happy. trying.
so apart from hanging out with friends..been going to the arcade. that kinda helps u know.
hmm..been seeing this girl for a few times already. well..had a happy day 2 days ago.
she made my day. thanx yar. thanx for the day. =)

thats all people. will update more when i have the means to do so.
chiao. take care.

2007-10-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

its my fault..everything is my fault.. blame it on me..
just as i thought i was moving on..everything came crashing down again..

k..to all people out there. its not her fault..
everything that happen to me now..is because of myself..my own doing..
everything is my fault!!!!

2007-10-10T10:46:00.000+08:00

im so at the lowest point of my life now..
certain times..i just feel like giving it up. seriously..
over what happened last thursday(041007)..can i say that life has changed for me.
really changed a lot. as in drastically.
but well..changed not for the better at least.

can i say that this portion of the post. is for someone. someone whom used to be special to me.
and her name is Nurul Ain. this is for u. i hope u read it. :
i want to say thank u. thank u for everything. for all this while. the past one year have i spent with you. it has been wonderful. and a great pleasure to be able to be with u. seriously.
all those times which were both happy or not. its still hard to forget. but since u want to go on ur seperate way. so yar..it has been fated to be like that. that we should go our own ways.
about what has happened in the past..all that ive done wrong towards u. im sorry.
i hope that u do forgive me. since hari raya is around the corner. then it is a time for forgiving.
im so sorry. there is more to what i have to say. i want to say thanx for all the time that we have spent together, thanx for all the memories that we've had and last but not least, thank u..for loving me. now that we are nothing already. i wont disturb u. u have ur own new path of life to live. stay happy always okie. and do take care of urself. and erm..i hope the guy that u have found. is much way better than me. and im sure he is.. live life to the fullest. k.
lastly..forget me not. cause we are still friends right?
i think that would be all for u. i do hope u have something to reply.

okie..moving on with what i have to brag about life.
life has really been very difficult for me. trying to cope with alot of things.
and im not sure if im string enough mentally and emotionally as well.
been feeling rather depressed lately. and i mean really depressed.
can i say emo?? if that is the word that suits me right now.
thinking bout family, friends, relationship, school with plenty of project work.

argh!! i just feel like giving up all. :'(
but i have to try..i cant give up..life can still go on. but it does hurt. really badly..
one thing about the above mentioned. my feelings are still strong. and i cant seem to move on with life..haiz... but i cant find my will to go on.. haiz.. :'(
ever heard of people die..cause of a broken heart?? i dont even know what is wrong with me.
if for that day..i had just listened to her..all this wouldnt have happened.
and thanx to my stubbornness..it did happen..
and i am regretting what ive done..for the rest of my life.. :'(

will someone..mend this broken heart..

2007-10-03T11:03:00.000+08:00

elo people. im in school now. hah! =)

crap arh. at home still no internet. so sad. :(
now only i go to school or to my granny's place then am i able to update things.
kinda difficult seh.
bloody irritating too.

can i say that my blog is dead??
should be arh. haiz..

lots and lots of things have happened. im lost.. im confused..
what the hell is wrong with me..
i dont know what to do..

2007-09-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

hey people! really am very sorry for not updating. my freaking modem still cant be used.
so its like damn hard to get online. now im at my granny's house.
and this is all i have to say for now.
coz this is all the time that i have now.

TMR IS MY BIRTHDAY!! 18 YRS OLD!!
and thats like damn old arh. haha. nah..kidding..18 is not old okie.

klah..till here then.

i miss my syg! i love u sweetheart!

2007-08-28T13:01:00.000+08:00

hey people. sorry for not updating for a very very very very long time.
been busy with stuff.

hmm..now the problem is that. my internet at home is down.
cause of the freaking modem. it's kaput. yar. so..having a hard time to use the internet.

lets see..i just came back from my study trip to malacca.
went there on fri and came back on sunday.
ermm..wel..it was kinda okie.fun? maybe..tiring? definitely. haha.

i missed my sweetheart so much when i was away. read her blog.
it was sweet..and touching. and erm..i have to say sorry to her.
cause of the things that i've done. im really sorry sweetheart. im sorry.
i love u. i love u so much. and erm..yar. am missig u soo much too.
hee.. =)

thats all for now. i will be updating when i have the chance to do so.
k. take care people. chiao.

2007-08-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

...

okie..i am back again. with more photos!! haha!

i think that today..i wont be posting a lot of words.

just let the pictures to do the talking yar? haha.

anyway..the photos nice or nt? comment leh. ooOoh.

haha!

...

today was such a super fun day. spent alot of time with my sweetheart.

and with our favourite couple. Q n Fi. weets! haha.

and before i forget..Dewi was with us too..in the early parts. hehe.

early in the morning..went for the WGS speech day. the band performed well just now.

some sort combined with the C.O for an encore piece. cool.

...

after that. spent my day at the library. ooh wait..

before that..went to eat at macD. so after the library thingy.

went to our usual hangout place.

had a drumming session.

and had a photo taking session. so cooOol. haha!

so much fun. really enjoyed today.

...

thats all for today now.

take care people. till then.

...

.:traehteews uoyevoli:.

2007-08-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

...

ok..so i havent been posting lately. lets see..what are the excuses that could be used.

hmm..lazy..busy..no mood. haha! so common alrady. sorry people!

can i say that i forgot about my blog?? haha. nah. not till that extent.

...

'up there'..are some few nice pictures. nice or not? haha.

some were taken today..and only one picture was from last friday.

cool pictures huh. i think that i do not have to explain the pictures to u right.

it has so many words inscribbed on it. so go figure. haha.

...

had a nice and wonderful day just now.

enjoyed my day with my sweetheart. am missing her already. hehe.

time is so precious. and why must it always past by so fast.

eventhough it was kind of a long time spent together.

it seemed so short. still got tmr right? haha.

...

so i guess till here then. there should be more pictures to upload tmr.

c ya. take care people.

...

_+traehteews uoyevoli+_

2007-07-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

haiz..i feel so tired. such a busy week ahead of me.
actually had been busy since last friday. so many things to do.
need to plan my schedule properly and carefully.
i must not neglect school work too.

talking about school. that reminds me. i've got good news..and also bad news of course.
bad news. my group is not doing that well in this case study project arh.
need to push harder. and put in more effort. cannot afford to slack.
good news. the deadline is pushed to monday. weets! go abit more time to do.
haha! and the talentime auditions are postponed till 25 august. yay! haha!
got more time to practice. talking bout all this. i have a lot of work to do.
damn! there will be a site visit tmr. haiz..

okie..lets talk about other stuff. maybe bout my day today? haha.
woke up late. err..as usual i suppose? haha.
went to school with imran. saw a lot of 'mat reps' in the mrt. irritating sia.
reached school. went for lunch. then had a little chat with my lecturer.
then started to do a lot..and i really meant a lot of work.
well..maybe im just exagerating. haha! it was kinda hard to draw out the section. damn it.
so bla3..school ended! yay! haha.

went off to meet azri and G.Q at civic library to discuss some stuff.
but on the way to the library. bumped into someone very familiar.
and that person is. my sweetheart! haha. saw her at the library with her friends.
i met up with her. since she was about to go home. so i sent her home first.
said to azri and G.Q that i will be back later.
so sent my sweetheart home. it was fun and enjoyable along the way.
had lots of laughter. funny arh. haha. a lot of things happened.
am missing her alrady..aww.. haha.

after sending her home..went back to look for the 2.
decided to go have dinner and discuss about this friday's event.
kinda long 'meeting'. haha.
so ended my day there. kinda hapy today. :)
till here. take care people.

_+traehteews uoyevoli+_

2007-07-29T11:36:00.000+08:00

The days seem to pass by very fast huh.
2 more weeks and it's school holidays for me. haha.
bad weather today. rained heavily. and its damn freaking cold.

kae..erm..im gonna be kinda busy in this coming week. got lots of things to be done.
lets see what are the upcoming events for this week.
i know that this friday there is an event at WGS. for the band. a mini get-together.
and there will be a debut of someting. will there be a performance?
kk. so other then that. there will also be a case study submisson. on friday too? i tink so.
and got some other stuff to plan and do for the get-together event.

it's still morning right now. kinda weird updating right now. haha.
will be going out soon. to my granny's house.

and im missing my sweetheart so much (padahal smlm baru jumpe ehk). haha.
anyway. im missing already. hope to get to meet her again sometime soon.

so i guess till here. will update more later when i get back.
take care people.

_+traehteews uoyevoli+_

2007-07-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

okie. finally i found some time to update my blog.
hmm.. apart from time. there are also some other reasons y.
and i dont want to mention them. :)

school so far is okie i guess. now have already moved on to case study project.
i dont know what happened to primer2. gone?? i have no idea.
so there is this, school of B.E (Built Environment), talentime competition.
me and a few of my friends are forming a band.
in a such short notice. guess what. the audition is next week! haha!
its like so damn freaking close. oops.. need to mind my language. sorry.
hope that we can get through. with only less than a week to practice. hah.

i think that that should be all for my school report for the past three days. haha.
kinda short dont u think so?

hmm..i feel so different lately. i dont know why.
am i not being myself? what has happened to me?
i wish that i myself knew. i musnt let my emotions overcome my state of mind.
eh. what am i crapping about sia. im not emo or anything kae people.
i think that there is just something wrong with myself. haiz..

ouh yar. another thing is that. to my A.C bandmates.
please larh. settle our problems now.
i dont like how the band is looking right now.
and i dont like the way the band is functioning now.
what the hell is wrong with you people?!
sorry..shouldnt have did that. haiz..
there are just so many things on my mind right now.

i should end my post here for todae.
im not in the right mood to type out anything more.
going to get some rest. or maybe just stay up and think about all this.
hmm...lets see how it goes.

take care people. till then. :)

_+traehteews uoyevoli+_